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Some of my favorite boys!

A PLANE, A SUITCASE, AND A BOTTLE OF LUBE….HOW DO I GET MYSELF INTO THESE THINGS

I don't commonly travel with lube but I was going to Vegas and well as we all know what happens in Vegas stays in Vegas. So with some anticipation of fun times along with a weeklong of hard work I was going to be prepared for any situation. So I packed my bags threw in my lube and a few condoms and I was ready to go! Well I got to Vegas with no problems and I spent my week there and it was a lot of fun. On the return trip however is when things went a little bad. I am notorious for over packing. At that time I'd bought this fabulous luggage from Banana Republic. I'd bought a matching carryon bag and an overnight bag and they were really well made or so I thought. At any rate, I'd filled both bags up with as much of my stuff as possible. I always had this undeniable thought that I must be prepared for any situation. I mean i was going to be working most of the time that I was there but hell I didn't know what the nights would bring and if I needed my slut gear or my upscale dinner gear so of course I had to bring it all. Well you don't have to have a good imagination to figure out where this story is going. An over filled piece of luggage and an airport with careless baggage handlers is not a good combination. So picture it, I've just landed and I'm standing at the baggage carousel all unsuspecting and waiting for my luggage to come down without a care in the world or knowledge of what I'm about to experience. I of course know exactly what my luggage looks like because it's nice and new and very grey and recognizable. I'm standing there just waiting and waiting and then I began to get nervous. My counterparts that I was traveling with had already gotten their luggage and mine was nowhere to be found. I begin to wonder and as the carousel continues to spin with luggage and a black trash bag and not any of my luggage, curiosity kicks in. So I walk over to the black trash bag and pull it off… I open it up and it's half of the contents of my bag. I'm like what the hell is going on? I take the bag and shortly thereafter my grey banana republic bag comes up the ramp and down the carousel. I'm thinking to myself thank God I was going to have to go crazy on someone. So I go to grab m bag off the carousel and this is the funny part… Why am I telling this story? I have no Idea. So I pick up my bag and out flies everything in it onto the airport floor. The zipper on it had broken. At that very moment I'd regretted everything I'd packed in that bag. Here I am scrambling to gather up my things. I'm so embarrassed of course everything in my bag was dirty I'm thinking the one time in my life where I didn't want any help from anyone and of course everyone rushed to help me out. So the kicker was the lube. Of course it was going to be the lube right? It rolled out of my suitcase and half way across the floor and while I'm putting everything in my bag and people are handing me stuff I didn't really notice the lube. I could not believe that this was happing to me.. I'm sweating and hot with embarrassment. Finally, as I get most of my things contained and within close proximity to me I see the lube. Mind you I'm leaving out one small detail. I'd collected another smaller bottle of lube while I was in Vegas. It had jumped out of the bag as well. So as I'm reaching for it a pretty young lady picks it up before I do and hands it to me. She kind of gives a friendly smile and I in a muted under my breath voice say "thank you." And then after all of that there's the other bottle. Well by this time a young tall and handsome white man has picked it up and headed over to me. I'm on my knees kneeling over my suitcase and he walks up with a cocky smile and says "here ya go" I'm mesmerized at this point. I couldn't really focus on the rest of what he was saying to me but it seemed odd that he was making conversation over a bottle of lube. He has very attractive with long curly hair. Looking back on it either he was really nice or flirting either way I think I missed a golden opportunity to use my embarrassing moment to pick up a hot guy! Lesson learned.. I don't over pack my suitcase unless I'm going to be the only one handling it!

“HE’S JUST NOT THAT INTO YOU!” ….OH REALLY WHAT THE F*CK GAVE THAT AWAY?

I watched this movie last night "He's just not that into you". It was quite a pleasant little film. I enjoyed how it showed all those wonderful signs that indicate the just how a person isn't diggin you. Its funny our society. We think its better to just smile, lie and walk away, hoping that we never have to see that person we just made feel really good about themselves when really they just aren't that into them. What's that about really? There are subtle ways to give someone the boot ya know? I'm a firm believer of say what you mean and mean what you say. There isn't this vague I'm not sure what he meant feeling when you're done talking to me. I have run into so many people in my life that you meet casually by whatever means and you're sitting across from them and they are your best friend. You trade numbers, say lets keep in touch and well basically your paths never cross again. I've always been that person that if I say I'm going to call you I call you. I just hate that people often time say what they don't mean. For example if you're in that situation and I've just met you and we are seemingly hitting it off or whatever and I say hey give me your number so I can call you….. I will call you! Lol… but I've met some people and in the very same situation u get their number u call them and they never answer or call you back or respond to text messages and well all the while I'm thinking to myself why did they do that? You run into them at the mall and you mention you call and all that other stuff and they laugh and say I never got your messages…..REALLY? My favorite character from the movie was GIGI… I feel like her. When I like someone I like them.. There is no guess work involved and you know it. I will admit that she was a bit on the crazy stalker side which I'm not that way but it was cute to watch. So why am I talking about this? I have no idea! But I just wanted to say to everyone in the world who has falsely asked for a phone number or said yes let's keep in touch or that I will call you and all that other jazz just to be "nice", please don't be nice. In the long run those of us like GIGI who believe and hang on your every word will ultimately be disappointed. My motto, a little hurt today is better than a whole lot of hurt later!

LOVE FOR A DOLLAR AND WHY I DON’T LIKE EXOTIC DANCERS

Ok so its Sunday night and my friend wants to go to the bar and have a drink where there are male dancers on the cube. I like to go from time to time just to look and see some hot guys. Trust me where these boys are dancing there are usually the most disgusting of men hanging out so it's not a place to go and pick up hot guys. There is only one reason to go and that's to see the boys on the box. Well I've been in the lifestyle for some time now. I remember when I would first go out and I was mesmerized and tantalized by the boys on the box and almost every bar that you could go to would have a box and a boy on it. It was fabulous. Well silly me, here I am a newbie, new kid on the block thinking that I could give this man a dollar and he gone love me! Thinking back I could kick myself for being so naive. It's human right, to want to have the boy on the box? After all, they are usually hot and rally built like you can't believe. Luckily in my youth I wasn't too out there particularly when it came to my finances. I would give a few dollars to the boys but not my whole paycheck. I hear that this is a real problem for some households. I mean men would go out and put all their money in the woman's g-string just for a few kicks. I understand the fantasy and all but I have to ask the question when does it get old? When do you realize that you're not going to get the girl or the guy on the box and really do u want to date/do that person? I'm not saying that the exotic dancer is a whore or anything, although they very well could be. Why am I writing about this? I have no idea. Another friend and I argued intensely on this topic in one of the very same bars I went to on Sunday night. We were at the bar and drinking and having a relatively good time and he says why don't you give one of the dancers a dollar. I said I don't give dancers dollars. He went on to ask "why not?" I told him that when I was young and going out I threw countless dollars at dancers. I added that I was young and silly in my thought process and I always hoped that they were into me and ultimately wanted me. He said "what does that have to do with now?" I told him that once I realized that the dancers would say and do anything for that dollar that I was turned off completely. I only know what I've experienced so far, which honestly probably isn't much, but every one of those dancers didn't have a problem with being really nice to you as long as you are putting money in their pocket. Believe me I think that's fine. I think that if you have the body, face and talent to stand on a box and in essence sell yourself then do it! I just don't want to participate in your exploitations. My friend just really didn't understand why I would think this way. Basically I resorted to saying that at the end of the day it was my money and if I didn't feel like giving it away to someone for the mere fact that they were providing, if you will, a service of sorts then that was my choice. Honestly, at this point in my life I don't even like going to those places because of constantly having to see some hot guy run around half naked. I mean what's the point of being "tantalized"? Does anyone know the origins of the word TANTALIZED? In Greek mythology, Tantulus a child of Zeus, was condemned to suffer in a cave where he was knee deep in water and with a fruit tree above. When Tantulus would reach for the fruit on the tree it would pull away from him and when he would kneel to drink from the pool of water it would recede. Talk about suffering to consistently have something very desirable within arm's reach and never be able to touch it or have it. Why would you want that? This is the very reason I don't like exotic dancers. They talk to you, they give the impression that they like you, they say how good you look and so on and so forth but at the end of the night they go home to someone else. I can stay at home with my special someone, when I have one, and get my own exotic show and put dollars in his g-string and screw my brains out. I have no desire to have all that fantasy with no end result. That's the exact same reason I don't like porn. I know perhaps I'm just and odd ball, but at least I know what I like and don't like. I suggest to all those who are spending their money on some intangible product, ie: exotic dancers, save it you'll be better off in the long run.

THE RACE CARD (pt 1)

"I fuk black dudes...If they are worthy. People are racist because of their personal experiences. The Latino, asian, white, pacific islander, African immigrants (black)all say the same about American blacks. Lazy...dont want to work, Steal your shit, Sue the shit out of you if they work for you, fall down in the grocery store and sue, Assault you, take your wallet, murder you, dont pay loans back to banks or individuals, beg for quarters, argumentative and way too angry, food stamps, subsidized housing, POLICE YOUR OWN AND QUIT BLAMING SLAVERY FROM 280 years ago. Mexicans come here with no ID, whatever they are wearing, and in 2 years have a new Tahoe, home with their family, pay bills, and fit in. Blacks have lived here their whole life and have a dart pass and lone star card. Blacks need to realize they are their own worse enemy. It is not skin color, because the Nigerians, camaroonians, sudanese, that are black say the same about American blacks. THISA IS WHY WE ARE ALL RACIST! CLEAN YOUR OWN RACE UP AND QUIT BLAMING THE WHOLE WORLD. WE ARE SICK OF HEARING THIS CRAP! YOU DESERVE THIS TIRADE because I had to read about racism on a sex hook up site! Change it--no one wants to hear you WHINE --Sounds niggery to me. And yes, I said it..The "N" word..I hear it on TV everyday, radio, I Pod, movies, everytime I walk past a group of Blacks talking, so dont lecture me and others for saying it too. I hear it at least 50 times a day. Makes me sick to hear it--Either no-one say it or everyone says it. I choose everyone until you all stop making me hear it Geesh!"

This was sent to me once on a site I was on. It was a hookup site for gay men and I’d posted a profile there that stated my aggravation with other profiles that spoke to race preferences. I’m always slightly bothered when I have taken the time to actually read what someone has said vs just looking at their picture and responding to that and have to read “only into White, Latino, Asian, Indian, but no blacks sorry just a preference” or something similar. I couldn’t tell you why I’m so bothered by the “race preference” thing. I guess because I’m really being discriminated against? I can’t control the color of my skin. It makes me feel bad because I feel like something is wrong with being Black. Well from the looks of it according to who we will call “Jim” there is something very wrong with being black. When I read this I was mortified. Is the general consensus by non Black American people?
If you take a man and you tell him his whole life that he is nothing and you treat him like trash and like he was just like that nothing thing you said he was tell me what will he teach his children? If he teaches his children the only thing he ever knew which was that he was nothing and by default then all of his seeds must be nothing then what will his children be? Sure slavery happened years and years and years ago. How convient though we forget that in America that segregation only ended in the 1960s, not even 50 years ago. Mind you for the record slavery ended in 1865 that’s only 145 years ago not the 280 years this moron claimed. So enslave a race of people for a few hundred years then, set them free only to tell them they aren’t allowed to commune with you and finally when they get “equal rights” all is supposed to be forgotten? Oh and let’s not pretend that just because the laws changed that attitudes did as well. Discrimination was very much a reality in the US right after the segregation laws were overturned and still exist today.
Sure times have changed. I would never negate the progress that has been made in America between the races. I also would say that there is still more to be done. I know that as the older people begin to die off and along with them their discriminatory sentiments their teachings will hopefully diminish in numbers and even one day be none existent. The same can be said of the anger, resentment and defeatist attitude that’s still present in the American Black culture. Prejudice is still real people! Blacks may not still be slaves or openly discriminated against but discrimination still happens undercover and sometimes unawares. We can call them preferences if we want to and I intend to explore in more depth that whole idea as I seek real UNDERSTANDING. I just wanted to address this statement as when it was written to me I ignored it. I complained to the service I was using of course and this member was removed from the site. I’m sure he opened another profile under a different name and is still spewing his stupidity on others.
Well America this guy is speaking for you! There’s always one right? So in response I just wanted to say…. If Blacks are all these things Jim, and certainly there are some unsavory people in the world but of all races not just Blacks, where did they learn this behavior? I will never forget as a young man while I was working a white man told me,” it’s best to wait until the last minute to pay your debts, everyone knows that’s smarter.” More often than not it is a white man that’s embezzling millions of dollars from the company he’s working for. I suppose as Blacks we should be more ambitious when we steal. As far as welfare more whites are on welfare than any other race followed by blacks. I guess we all have something to learn from Mexicans? I won’t even address the rest of the ridiculous statements found in here. My point is “Jim”, the enslavement, discrimination, degradation of Blacks in America is owned solely by the whites who committed and continue to commit these acts. We were made the monster you now hate by your own doing. It lasted hundreds of years in some form or another. Do you think in 40 or 50 years the stain, the hurt and pain would be faded? Tracy Chapman sings a song entitled “Bang Bang Bang” that I like and is a fitting conclusion to my post….
”What you go and do
You go and give the boy a gun
Now there ain't no place to run to
Ain't no place to run

Now we'll all be at his mercy
If he decides to hunt us down
Cause there ain't no place to run to
Ain't no place to run

If he wants the chances that you took from him
And nothing that you own
Then there'll be no place to run to
There'll be no place to run

And if he finds himself to be
A reflection of us all
Bang bang bang
He'll shoot us down

Before you can raise your eyes to read
The writing on the wall
Bang bang bang
He'll shoot you down

Before you can bridge the gulf between
And embrace him in your arms
Bang bang bang
He'll shoot you down”